Where's the patriotism??

So on Sunday I went to church in which they were honoring the veterans that have passed and those men who have served. It was great there was a mixed color guard there from all three Irving high schools, and they moved with impressive precision. But, when they began to march in, no one stood. I looked at my dad, who is a Marine vet, and said "shouldn't we stand". I was shocked it took them until they hit the stage before the auditorium was standing. Then the bugler came out to play, and yet again no one with their hands over their hearts. HELLO, people can't we have just a little bit of patriotism and gratitude. I mean in this country we can even complain and it's OK. Other countries we would be shot for simply speaking our mind. Why is it that it seems every where I go, people are upset and bashing the U. S.? I love this country, and would very easily fight to save it should that arise. I'm glad we have a military that is oversees serving our interest so that we may live as if nothing is going on here.
That brings me to my next point of 'really people you want them fighting in your back yard?' - no of course you don't, but yet you don't want them fighting over there either. Rest assured it is our fight, there was a little thing call 911 that made us a slight bit upset and we had to rectify the situation. Truth is the government is much like our parents, they don't tell us everything because it was burden us unnecessarily. There are many things we don't know about, therefore can't make an informed decision as to what the proper steps of recognisance should be. So let's not speak out against our fellow soldiers who are laying their lives down for us and our dear country. Next time someone plays Taps or walks in the room with a flag, lets salute with a hand over our heart to show that we truly are grateful for all this country has done for us.

On another note, children. You know they develop at their own speed---or do they? Does society actually belittle those that don't do the standard 'ride a bike' 'swim underwater' or 'tie a shoe' by what is supposedly the set 'age'. You know maybe your little Mozart doesn't ride a bike, but makes 100 on their spelling test every week. Or does math problems in their head. So maybe sports is not their forte, however they can paint the prettiest picture of a barn for you. Does this make them social outcast because "THEY" say they are "BEHIND"...I say no. Everyone is entitled to learn at their own pace, and should that mean they don't ride a bike til nine so be it. I would rather have a Beethoven than a Jeff Gordon any day. Artistic ability is just as important as physical capabilities, and NOT a measuring stick of potential. So let me say to "THEY", stick it in your ear cuz your bike riding, scuba kid will be calling my honor student "BOSS" one day.

Just one last thing, I love my kids---I think about my children all day. I long for Grace's hugs, and Kanyen's coos. I don't know how you mother's walk out the door to work every morning, because I do it and don't know how. I think I put on a veil of facade like I it doesn't bother me -- all the while walking around with my heart torn out and shredded. I don't care that a million mother's do it...I'm not them. I'm me, and I miss my kids. I just got to spend the last six days with them alone and it still is never enough. I didn't want a break, didn't need help and even took on an extra so Grace would have a playmate. I love it, and taking care of our home as well. I was called domesticated this weekend and what a great honor that is. Of course I am, I have delivered these kids to raise and love more than anything else. So pardon for being sad because I have to leave them everyday, but I equate it to leaving home without your arms because they are wrapped around the two most precious beings you have ever laid eyes on. Oh I will go to work because that is what finances demand, but don't expect me to like it or even fake a smile when I don't want to. There will never be a day it becomes 'easier' to walk out that door in the morning. So I say again...I love my kids---they are me!

To Grace and Kanyen, should you ever wonder if your Mother loved you I hope you read this. For Jesus formed you in my womb and I delivered you into this world. I kiss, hug, touch, bathe, feed, etc...because two hearts I have for each of you beat souly for you. All steps made every day is for the betterment of you. I have your pictures posted at my office, your voices playing in my head. I speak of you constantly just to feel close to you. If I could I would have both of you right next to me twenty four hours a day. I don't tire of being called Mama, and you are my greatest accomplishments. I love you both more than I love myself!

I pray: Dear Heavenly Father, give me the strength to do this job I am required to do daily. Please send me your peace so that I may not stress over what I miss while away. I ask that you show me your will for my children daily so that they might see you through me. For I am but one person and give my life to you for your full control. Guide me Lord with wisdom and knowledge so that my desires are your desires. AMEN

Thank you Jesus for Wes, Grace, and Kanyen for they are my Heaven right here on Earth.